Again

We say never again... but again always comes. I've once again become a victim to some image or snapshot of Love that I thought could exist, and I once again was shut down and put back into my place, and I will probably once again go through the same thing again. I can't seem to escape it. At the same time everyone seems to feel it's okay to step on my fingers, because I'm just so insignificant that'd it'd be okay. People repeatedly stand me up... play me a fool... LIE to try and be nice. I don't get it. I won't accept it. I just need to start cutting them out of my life.it will leave me all alone but maybe that's what's needed. I just don't get things sometimes and I swear if put in a similar situation I'm just going to be outright instead of beating around the bush. Idk where to go next from here... or what to do. I'm pretty much fed up with myself ans everything.