Monday, February 15, 2010
Last words on this
So! After talking to the beautiful Juliana (^__^) I realize that I really need to change some of the things I do. I observe a lot from the outside, and take note on things I see with people. I'll see someone I think is attractive, or I'll like their style, and I'll leave it at that. But as weeks go by little things I see could add up.. and I'll try to judge what kind of person they are from the things I see. For example if someone walks by I see them looking down at their feet. And that's just not good! I guess maybe from my past experiences I'm just afraid to approach people, but I need to stop, because then once I meet one of these people I have this entire log of them.. weeks worth and I already have a certain liking to them. And once they confirm things or they show themselves to be good people too I'm hooked, and it's as if I've known this person for so long. And they on the other hand just met me and have no clue because I hide in the shadows. And then I get so excited from like good vibes I just let it control me and I'm not myself, and I listen to other people WAY too much. Not to mention I also come off as crazy lol... and people don't understand. I'm sorry that I lost a friendship opportunity from this but I feel in time things will change maybe. I'm not upset anymore and I just realize I have to laugh it off and keep going. I've learned from this, it's another thing to put into the books to NEVER do again lol. At the same time I need to not care what people think... or worry what people think of me. It gives me an anxiety and just isn't good. It makes me act differently. Or try to live up to something I'm not. Do things that I'm not. I know that the people who know the real me know how good of a person I am. And I just need to believe in that and just be myself... and be patient. Well life is about experiences. I'll get it eventually.
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im glad you finally spoke about this in your blog.. i knew you would come back to life, and take it as an experience that you have learned from. life is crazy and so is love. just keep your head up, and dont be that person that looks down at their shoes... i know i do that sometimes.. not good. but good write :] i like.
ReplyDeleteTheres a lot more to a person than just what you can see and observe. People go deep, just like you. One thing I've learned is to go with the flow. Go with the flow with a new friendship, or relationship because that way you won't be expecting something that may/may not be possible. If that makes sense.
ReplyDeleteIt does make a lot of sense.. It's something I need to work on
ReplyDeleteYou're so good at not only analyzing and understanding situations, but gaining perspective on things and learning from them. You've got a good head on your shoulders.
ReplyDeletei like what mia said. everything happens for a reason, whether its for a lesson or fun or just life. :)
ReplyDeleteLife is all about perspective. It just depends on which one you take on. You can be that one that looks at their shoes or you can be the observer. You can be the one to walk with your head held high, smile to the sun. When you feel like there's nothing left, or you're at a dead end, stop, look around, and look at the situation from a different angle. I'm telling you, it changes everything.
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